So the other night that faggot tried to attack me... well tonight got even more exciting...
So I was dancing upstairs at S4 and these kids came up to me, and were all like "We're your biggest fans, saw you were coming out here tonight, we drove 2 hours to see you!"
so I hung out with them... I mean thats really nice.. so the night went on, like 20 people took pics with me, it was great... and then I get on the dancefloor..
Well that kid who shoved me and got kicked out, wasnt the only person in Dallas who dislikes me...
This kid kept staring at me, while I was dancing, so I smiled.. I mean I'm nice to everyone...
He looked tragic and his friend was even uglier, they looked like garage goodwill versions of lady gaga and the other one had horrible hair, bad skin, and looks like he shopped in the maternity section of Target....
Anywho, so they kept looking at me, and then at their phone, and back at me, and then at their phone... well my BFF and Publicist Morgan was all over it....
He watched them like a hawk... I was dancing with this cute boy with Cheetah print hair... and these kids started taking pics of me when I started to kiss him....
So I turned around and looked at heir phone, and their was the photo of me hanging from christmas lights... and I say "I know HOTT right!" and they go, oh, we werent admiring, we were laughing.. and I was like oh why, cuz you looked in the mirror and realized you'll never be as skinny and christmas lights would never hold your fat asses...
Well Morgan steps in, AGAIN... and is like.. come with me... TO ME... lol.. and then is like... we have to watch your image... blah blah.. you're becoming a public figure now.. and need to .... blah blah blah....
and I get all pissed off and storm in the bathroom and start crying... not because my best friend and publicist is scolding me and trying to protect me...
but because It just HIT me that I can no longer go out, get drunk and do what I want.... I cant be a normal person anymore...
and thats perfectly fine.... I mean I did this myself... I asked for all of this...
but it just hurts to know that so many people want to see me fail, and watch my every move, and I cant even go out to a club, meet a really cute guy and kiss him, without people wanting to bring me down...
It really makes me kinda dispise the gay community... because they're so jugemental and jealous... when in fact, we should be happy we are finally being treated equal and people should live their own lives... and stop living mine...
If I'm your IDOL and you love me... then HOTT.... I love you... but please realize, I still like to have fun, and be human when I go out in public... watching my every move and taking pics with me is fine... but when it comes to my PERSONAL... PRIVATE LIFE... it should be about RESPECT.. and people should step back and say... would I want someone to do this to me....
but then again... THATS WHAT PAPARAZZI DO.... right?
so its whatever... I guess I have to get used to a new aspect of "FAME" everyday.... but sometimes I just think its entirely LAME!!!!!!
this would be one of those situations...
so we left the club... didnt even get anything to eat... and now we are back in the hotel room.. and I'm starving... so I'm gonna attempt to cook.... lmao...
WISH ME LUCK!!!!!!
ON ANOTHER NOTE.... I JUST POSTED THE NEW SONG I DID WITH RUPAUL!!!!!!
CHECK IT OUT!!!!! Its playing on my page.... please add it to your own pages!!!!!
XOXO
BH
I do REPLY!!!!!!
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